Being so openly vulnerable and honest feels like I’m leaving myself open. Even though I just told my bestfriends. It feels like I gave a piece of my heart to them. To say my weaknesses. To say what I’m scared of. And the fact that I told them I feel like  I need to act like this sad puppy dog around them about it. It’s like saying it makes it real and I have to be like it. Sounds crazy right? And absolutely doesn’t make sense. I don’t have to act the way I say what I feel. I don’t know it just feels so unnatural. I have to say living with your heart open is scary. But the moment I realized that its just pain that’s going to happen because of the fear it made me not scared anymore. I can tolerate pain. And it will pass.