Is it just me or am I the only having this battle with stress? But maybe I’m looking at it the wrong way. At this very moment if anyone asked me what is my biggest problem it would be finding out how to handle my stress. It’s funny how I ask everyone how they deal with stress and even though I implement it it doesn’t work. It’s like I feel like no one has the answer? But you best believe I’m on the journey on finding the solution for that for me at least. Living with stress or the way I look at it and deal with it is definitely not sustainable. I’ve never gotten so sick so mentally fucked up so fucking emotional EVER. And its the biggest obstacle I have yet. I truly do feel like I’m meant to conquer this shit. Like it was meant for me. Cause damn it happens way too often and clearly you want to me to deal with it. But one thing I know for sure when I do get over this obstacle or ease my way into it and allow it and work with it I’ll be able to do A SHIT LOAD of things.
I can’t believe you would say that shit to me?! Like are you fucking serious right now?! You’re blaming me because you considered my feelings?! Excuse me?! Look you fucking made the decision to consider my feelings so don’t blame me for shit when you don’t have your ways now. And no offence your statement that you made that could have made you a shitloae of money if you didn’t consider my feelings is just A FUCKING STATEMENT not actual truth. It’s a fucken scenario so fuck you. Fuck you for blaming me for your possibility of hitting it rich and never having to work again FUCK YOU. I’m so mad at myself for even letting you get to me. I avoid you everyday cause I don’t want to deal with uour negativity and your bitch ass undermining statements to me when you don’t get your way. FUCK YOU. But it was only a matter of time that one day I let you get to me I’m still human. UGH I’m so mad